Writing & poetry: Carina Ramm www.sunbeings.org (English)
Art: Petra Heveroch
www.petraheveroch.com (German)
www.petra-heveroch.pixels.com (English)
For my family – yes, for you.
Content
Foreword to the English version
Being oneself
Our life
The grand transformation
Thoughts
A free human – a free world
The Earth
Radically being oneself
Final words
Inspiration
About me, you and us
The artist – Petra Heveroch
A poem for you…
Foreword to the English version
This short essay was first written in German, my mother tongue. Translating a living text into another language always changes it. Nuances and meanings specific to particular word combinations cannot be conveyed to a precise match. To maintain the frequencies behind the writing and the alive feelings while I was typing, I have occasionally slightly changed the wording such that the translation may not be the closest possible, yet something underneath, which is more important is transcribed accurately. This is esp. true for the poem in the end – allowing for rhyme while conveying the full depth of meaning was an interesting journey of creativity.
Being oneself
What does ‘being oneself’ mean in our societies? What happens when sensitivity and deep compassion are expressed, when we are loud or have a different opinion?
It can feel as though one is working against windmills. It attracts opposition and implies being rebuked or even attacked. It scares others and sometimes ourselves when we feel that we don’t belong. When we reveal unfiltered who we are, when that line between you and me dissolves, when we let go and float freely we can stand strong in our life, unwavering. Our societies have other expectations. The institutions responsible for our education, which we work for and which tell us how we should live and wish to teach us what it means to be alive, have other expectations. Why so? Why are our societal structures in discord with humanness? Where are these structures that seemingly govern our lives coming from? Who are we?
Our life
Is Nature your institution – that intelligence and foundation of all life on Earth, on which everything depends, that determines all outcomes and in which all our wisdom lays? Or, is your life dictated by the external: regulatory statutes enacted and propagated by governments, churches, industries, digital technology, media, banks, the worldwide health system – all these means and systems which could be so positive were they rooted in humanness? Are they not? What do you think? What do you feel when you ask yourself that question? Do these systems feel life-enhancing?
What if all these structures, the military, and even most charities and many NGOs belong to something that we have accepted as ‘ours’ and integrated into our lives – something we rarely question since that would mean to scrutinise almost everything we know and identify with? Yet, only, almost everything. It is a world which we are familiarised with from a very young age and in which we apparently have to function – a world which is inserted into us by parental and scholarly means, societal leadership figures, media etc. Young people often find this world bizarre but quickly understand the importance of learning to navigate it, to be part of society and to receive the recognition and appreciation that means so much to us all, and which we long for.
Can you muster the courage to open your eyes and seriously ask yourself these questions? Coming to your own conclusion is part of being human. I am not here to tell you what is right, or wrong. I am merely a human being who has posed many questions and who has rediscovered life and humanness and would like to share both with you because we belong together, despite and precisely because of, the many things which seemingly separate us, which bring us apart – internally and in our societies, in our villages, cities, countries and this world.
Does your daily news feed really offer an honest reflection of the world we live in? What if I told you that there are peoples in the Amazonian Rainforest, in Indonesia and parts of Africa that not only live in healthy mutuality with nature, but who have never contacted our so-called civilised world – uncontacted tribes and peoples. And if I also told you that one genocide follows another, right now, to remove these peoples from the Earth so that multinational corporations and non-humanness can proliferate unhindered. Have you ever heard about this or the forced sterilisation of Indigenous women in Canada, South America and Australia in the news?
What if our lives are not so much shaped by humanness as they are by a system which is not ours? In this world, our ways of living are undergoing a tremendous transformation; might we – right now – have the opportunity to (re)discover and (re)claim who we are and build a world inside us and around us which truly provides our children with what they need, and with what we have always dreamed of. Nonsense? Wake up and give yourself the chance to be you.
The grand transformation
Radically being oneself means to embody that Nature which births us into this world, nourishes us and which most people have removed themselves from, to such an extent that her intelligence is no longer recognised as Self. Instead, it is perceived as the other and is juxtaposed to the human being or even seen as hostile in both: the world around us which is our home and the depths of our internal being.
More and more people recognise this issue, see fragments of the many ways in which technologies have taken over our lives but don’t know how else it should or could be, and how deep the abyss we have to face really is (and we can face it as our strength ismore than sufficient). The trauma of our history is blinding many of us. What we want least is a repetition of that history and yet what most of us live and support, is the repetition of such non-human history.
Identities formed by institutions overlay humanness, yet that real, alive core being is increasingly gaining strength. We all remember what it means to LIVE but can we question everything we know, build our structures and societies anew on the foundation of what it means to be a being full of life? Yes, for this transformation is in full swing already. Sometimes the lack of scrutiny in our societies scares me – the level of fear, change and of genuine, personal truth – but then I feel, inside and out, how unstoppable this grand transformation is and I see people wake up from their robotic existence, demanding change and uniting to build something entirely new together.
The frequencies of our bodily signals have long changed. The signals of light, electricity and sound which we continuously emit (we never learned about that in biology lessons either) are so much higher in frequency and more powerful than a few years back. The same is true for the signals of this planet, its animal and plant beings, our waters and lands— everything that is alive. The barriers which have isolated us until very recently are deeply ruptured. The Earth’s magnetic field has changed, our connection with the sun – that wellspring of life – is much closer and the same is reflected inside us. Nature, of which we only knew as a vague,downgraded, extremely limited version, has long re-emerged and burst into full presence. Our human abilities of self-healing and materialisation have been activated and gain in strength with every passing day, if we actively walk the path of humanness. Whatever does not fit into the system that we call Life, has been expelled from its subterranean abyssals and is surfacing in everyday life – inside us and around us, in the world we live in. Turmoil ensues.
Human beings who embody Nature are incredibly powerful and create a lifestream which takes everything with it and births a world of which we always knew exists and lives inside us but the belief in which we had lost. The belief in that world is the belief in ourselves, and it is a belief which is undergoing an incredible resurgence. Institutions and stagnant identities are crumbling as more and more people recognise the emptiness – the absence of Life – in both. The images we are fed – on the radio, on posters, in the news, in political speeches, magazines and on social media channels – fade before reaching our senses, if we are radically ourselves. Our sense of what it means to be human is screaming louder every day, whether we like it, or not. A ripping one-way street back to our core.
Thoughts
Millions of people attempt to reduce their mental activity or at least steer it towards a more positive direction through meditation, chant, art, sports, nature excursions, or by living more slowly with less exposure to stimulating influences – out of the head and into the body and hence, into life. The plethora of spiritual and religious techniques and rituals offered to ease this path leaves a lot to be desired; often these practices bring very little lasting relief in everyday life. What does that mean? What are thoughts? Where do they come from?
How does it feel? Do you get the sense that the voice in your head belongs to you? Are you in control of your thoughts or are you remotely controlled? We all know the running commentary or the flash-like insights which seem to come out of nowhere. Those familiar with this topic or who simply regularly pay attention to their thought processes, usually realise quickly that thoughts enter our biosystem from the outside and that much of our mental activity makes no sense in the context of our personal lives, “This is not me. This is not my opinion or how I feel,” is what many say after a critical look at their thinking patterns.
Well, exactly. This is a problem because all too often we do follow these thoughts which are not ours – analysing, weighing arguments against one another, getting carried away by that often negative, self- doubting voice – emotionally and in our decision- making. Our mental world is predominantly controlled by sophisticated technologies which do not originate in the system and intelligence of Nature. Thoughts are a means to control people. This, we should be very clear about if we want to rediscover our humanness. And, of course, this is never mentioned in the news or in biology lessons at school either.
Radically being oneself means decisions are not made from the head but are based on body signals which are rooted in the intelligence of Nature. Emotional reactions should not be immediate but delayed by the split second it takes to consult the internal stillness. More about that in the next chapter.
A free human – a free world
Not a dream but a reality. Now, or as soon as you let go, begin to radically be yourself. A world in which wealth and abundance do not depend on money, in which humans are human, and life – Nature – is supported and embodied, every minute and beyond the clocks, rich in diversity retrieved from the past and built together now and over the years to come – you there and me here because you know what humans, animals, plants and rocks, water, the lands and yourself need and love where you are, and I know what we want to materialise into full form here – not from the head, but rooted in the entirety of the human being. We don’t want to be machines controlled by centralised forces, do we?
A world in which we question together what we have been taught by our parents, schools, science and the media, in which we decide what we want to preserve and what we want to leave behind forever – starting with ourselves, then moving into the world. A world,which we treasure sufficiently to make it worthwhile standing up for what allows our children to live healthily, fully and happily.
You know exactly what it feels like to arrive in a new location, enter an unknown house or meet a human being – the sense of that first moment – an internal wince or joy and magnetism, sadness, excitement or alarm. This very first moment is your signal. It is faster and much deeper than thought which often follows immediately. Bring this signal to your awareness and live by it with all the courage it takes to be oneself in these times of transformation and chaos. This signal is also provoked when you have an idea, hear someone’s suggestion, see someone’s actions or when you have to make a decision; it is your steady companion for it represents the intelligence we call Nature which is you, can be embodied by you, and which materialises this universe. What do you perceive deeply within at that point of stillness? Fully express whatever you find there. That’s all it takes.
When we are radically ourselves, then we, too, are in constant transformation: sometimes soft and loving, sometimes bursting with anger and rage, sometimes sad and then again full of joy. Half of these emotions we rarely show in the belief that they are somehow inappropriate, too much for others to take, not accepted by society or in our home. Thoughts of self-doubt prompt many of us to dismiss what is right and to instead go along with what feels safe, so that we fit in or keep our job. What a world of restriction andlimitation this is. The internal pressure ever-increasing. It is your human right to radically be yourself. This does not mean being inconsiderate but that consideration is rooted in the system of Nature. It emerges from the deepest depths of our existence, not from shame, fear or guilt. Try it out. You will quickly enter a world of transformation and liberation which takes you back to yourself and to a different type of love. It is a world in which we decide, no coercion, abuse, exploitation, dominance. The latter are not human traits but belong to a world of non-humanness which does not know and cannot feel the language, biostream and webbing of love. For love is the cradle of Nature and non humanness is not rooted in this system of beingness.
Much depends on the coming months and years. More and more people die every day from not knowing how to be human and because the frequencies and activities of non-humanness are no longer supported on this planet which is fundamentally natural. This is happening at a point in time at which the freedom we have searched for, for so long on this planet, is laying before our feet. Unnecessary. Tragic. Sad. There is only one way to steer this stream back to Nature—by radically being oneself.
The Earth
Terrible news every day about the state of the Earth: the dying of life – animals, plants, humans – war, fire, fear and violence – dystopian images. Meanwhile life-bringing carbon is sucked out of the Earth’s atmosphere, silently and for dubious reasons. Think about it. Carbon is what we consist of. It’s what life consists of. Higher amounts of carbon form a reservoir for new life rooted in the system of Nature – new life which we need and desire on Earth. How could we let it come to this point? Why do we blindly trust institutions which are irreconcilable with humanness? All of us, again and again, despite our history, our intellect and the wisdom we were born with. For how much longer? Until, in the name of safety, our blood is removed from our veins and replaced with a machine-controlled, digitally interconnected ‘something’ which – for our safety – measures the data of our cyborg body around the clock so that we finally can sleep calmly and find inner peace while existing like robots in a worker – no, a slavery system – which generously provides an artificial replacement for everything which Nature has equipped us with, and which is our human right to embody: health, intelligence, abundance, power, interconnectedness.
And all of this, we only get, if we are compliant citizens who conform to the evermore fine-meshed external regulatory statutes which certain institutions and banks of this world have drafted and enacted for us. So that we don’t have to think. So that we don’t have to know. So that we don’t have to decide. So that we can fully focus on our work while the last old trees are falling for Ikea, the last rainforests are burning for palm oil plantations, the last Indigenous Peoples disappear, our rudimentary remaining human capabilities are replaced by fully monitored mobile apps.
This is not the way if you are a human being. The Earth was once a planet full of wonder, and will be again for we no longer and never again allow the destruction which this planet has endured. Is that a plan? Are you in?
Have you ever asked yourself why most of Earth’s forests consist of trees which are about 200 years old, or why the windows of so many old buildings are half buried in the ground, why so many stories of mythology, religion and folklore mention catastrophic deluges and mud floods? What lies buried under the desert sand? Are deserts really as natural as we are being told? Is their steady expansion as much caused by humanness as we are supposed to believe? Questions we need to ask for our children, for life, for our societies and ourselves so that humanness – our most basic right – can rebuild its future on Earth.
Radically being oneself
What would you like to see and support in this world? Nature, humanness or the continued destruction of both? The chasm between the two is tremendous. There is no middle ground. This is a time in which you should be clear about who you are and what you stand for. Passive drifting is not a way of Life. The excuse: “But others are doing it too,” cuts no ice anymore. This planet is undergoing a grand transformation – nothing and no one is excluded. Those who know who they are and embody Nature are supported in what they do for everything at work is an expression of the same intelligence. Others may run into one obstacle after the other – emotionally, mentally, physically, spiritually and beyond – mostly because their decisions and actions are not in agreement with the system of Life. All this is very obvious if one takes a deeper look at one’s internal and external environment—if one dares to see.
Radically being oneself means to live from stillness, rooted in our natural wisdom – taking full responsibility for oneself. It means to wholeheartedly use the opportunity of this time of grand transformation – the opportunity and duty – to rebuild our communities, families, villages and cities, and to deeply realise the meaning and technicalities of being human.
Do we want to acquiesce in the attempt to destroy Nature and to separate us from our humanness or do we want to open our eyes together and build what is worthy of being human? I think we all know the answer and have everything needed to walk this path. Look around in your area, in your life, inside you. What is missing? What are you supporting? What would you like to contribute? How can you breathe some more life into yourself, your family, your environment? You are strong. Do you think you are fully embodying this strength? Are you fully what you know you can and should be?
Radically being oneself means letting go of mind-based plans and goals and being open to what naturally unfolds in the context of Life. Nature’s intelligence is far more advanced than logical thinking although the two may complement one another if sequence and means of perception are conducive. If you are honest with yourself, then you know that we are unaware of most of our actions’ consequences, and even less able to predict them. Too many factors are involved most of which we know little about or nothing at all, as life reveals again and again, on small and grand scales. We think we do someone a favour just to find out that this was not at all the case because what they needed was something entirely different from what we thought. We think we know and are improving a situation yet things continue to go downhill – the story of this planet, look around. Especially in these times of all-encompassing transformation, even what used to be steady and stable has become unreliable. But—
We are all part of a life-giving intelligence which knows the way, spontaneously, now. Experience plays a role in radically being oneself but a secondary one. First, there is a signal which emerges from the entirety of your being—from humanness/Nature. Then there is the memory of previous experiences—what we believe we know. Then another signal in response to that memory or piece of information which we would like to include. If the body signal is positive, if you feel an internal openness, then the information is included. If there is an inner contraction then the experience or information is likely in disagreement with the flow of Life in this current situation. It sounds theoretical but happens in a split second, all the time. You feel it if you care to observe, pay attention, explore and if you dare to let go of the programming we all have received. It is not a chore but humanness itself which we have to distinguish from non-humanness – so is the situation on Earth.
The core of exciting new ways and opportunities usually consists of something you already knew about but which you have never noticed in this way because it did not hitherto fit into your life circumstances or your point of view has been a different one. Suddenly a new picture forms around a person you already knew, a country is calling you which you didn’t feel drawn to before, a platform or community you had already heard of but which never piqued your interest in the past suddenly feels exciting. Don’t look for the grand insight which out of the blue brings something entirely new and life-changing into your view. Nature, although incredibly diverse and exciting, is simple and continuous. 180o turns and Earth-shattering discoveries are usually a sign that something else is at play.
Final words
I hope you find this short essay helpful – this is the intention it was written with. You are more than welcome to share the pdf with others who you feel may find it supportive (scroll down to the end to find it).
If you would like to be inspired by the manifold ways in which humanness is materialising into form across the planet, then take a look at the following website www.sunbeings.org which I have created together with a very talented British artist and website designer – Kate Priestley. Under ‘Pioneer platfomr’ you will find initiatives, projects and businesses which resonate at the new frequencies, and increasingly reflect the intelligence and principles of Nature.
With love to the country in which I was born, but sadly never found the space to spread my wings and radically be myself. Maybe some time in the future,,,
Carina
Thank you
With thanks to Jacqueline www.oraclegirl.org.
About me, you and us
At school some teachers noticed me for writing essays which were incredibly revealing, deep and authentic – honest without reserve – well, by that I mean the two teachers which saw a value in this form of expressing. Mostly I invoked criticism by being myself and sharing my feelings and perceptions openly. I didn’t fit into society – too intense, too idealistic, too honest, too sensitive, not sensitive enough. At the age of 25 I left Germany, and a few years later also distanced myself entirely from my language. For the first time the feeling of constriction which had been my companion from a very young age on fell off of me.
Freedom. Finally. I spread my wings and flew for 15 years straight, lived in different countries on several continents, on sailboats, in a tent in the solitude of nature (only briefly), found community on various islands, in close relationship with old people, in spiritual circles, in a deep sense of connectedness with nature, in a very unconventional study program, in an online group. I dove into ayurvedic healing methods, yoga, energy healing and left it all behind. In foreign countries, surrounded by different cultures nobody expected me to be like the others. That was wonderful. Many people encountered me with unprejudiced curiosity and found inspiration and hope in my way of life. What a gift that was for me.
Now I often write for the Sunbeings.org website. Always in English. Till today. Aside from short emails to my mother or friends, this is the first time in 15 years I wrote a personal essay in German. Entirely unplanned. I love spontaneity. Immediately there is that same depth and authenticity which those two teachers had pointed out in my youth. This is me – my language, my truth, no matter the cost. Either I can be myself, or life is no longer alive, and why would I want to settle for any less than living fully?
I have the right to be myself, to say what is important to me, to live the way my Nature, our Nature, commands from the inside out. You too have this right. Let us change this world together with courage and determination, and build what we always recognised somewhere inside us as just, alive and worth living. I want to hear your voice, see your bravery – brave because you have decided to radically be yourself, whether you are rewarded, dispraised, ignored, or supported by society. Who are you?
The artist – Petra Heveroch
Petra Heveroch is an artist and creative companion. She creates resonance art – living symbols & zen art – for individuals, companies, organizations & therapeutic work. The art and it’s frequency wants to bring people back into their natural equilibrium, their inner peace, stillness & strength. It helps to place their focus on what is essential & true, our core.
Further, Petra supports women with practical, playful & grounded impulses to radically allow, embrace and honour themselves. To own their wellbeing. To relax into their natural wisdom and meet life curiously, playfully and honestly. Specifically she offers impulses and services for women regarding 1) solo travel, sabbaticals & location-independent living, 2) body based business, 3) nature & body connection 4) self-respect, boundaries & owning one’s space.
Besides her websites you can also connect with Petra on social media via @athomeinyourself.
A poem for you
A rose-glassed tree.
A thousand fears hidden in a perfect seam.
So many drifting lost, holding on to a crumbling beam.
Better to drown in the flood
Than to conquer one’s wrenching gut,
A view in the mirror with depth and clarity,
Taking the reins of this derailed life towards true charity.
Such decisions entirely one’s own
From the wellspring of the internal kaleidoscope
Far from newspapers and institutions
Scream for general persecution.
People can’t possibly be free
Looking into the depth of Life
Trusting the inner silence so deep
Building castles of their own reality.
When did this giant chasm appear?
Humans loosing their humanity.
Finding back to the nature of your heart
Letting evaporate the tremendous pains which set us apart.
The internal power grid
Ruling our outer voice and wit.
All beings closely linked,
Loneliness forever extinct.
Family not determined by blood,
Not pinned on paper, or decided by an institutional strut
But deeply united by frequency,
Which does not know limits or falsity.
Sudden standstill –
A profound rebirth,
Being human
In the cradle of Life on Earth.
A deeply rooted tranquility
Filled to the brim with vitality.
Rife with magic and strength
A presence which goes to whole new lengths.
The decision is yours –
Each man to his own.
The Earth spins faster with every passing day
Open the coffin, all anchors astray.
Hold on tight to the depth of your existence
Or fly to artificial stars beyond all distance.
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2 thoughts on “Radically being oneself – The grand waking up (English version) – By Carina Ramm”
Thank you so much Carina, for these deep, beautiful words, they very much resonate with me.
I am German and have lived for 30 years in Quebec. Last year I packed my bags and came back to Germany. Since then I visited friends and family in Switzerland and Australia and walked the Camino (Jakobsweg) in the North of Spain. Since then, strangely enough, I feel stuck and dont know where to go next, what to do next etc. etc. your website sunbeing.org and your essay really speak to me. So thank you again. What you write about I have researched myself for may years, some information however, I only received in the past 5 years. It all comes together. Your essay is a reminder for me to become still again and listen to my inner voice. lately, unfortunately, I became a bit distracted 🙁 all is well.
Sending you lots of love and gratitude !
Susanne
Thank you so, so much for the heartfelt feedback Susanne. I too am German and have lived abroad, incl. in Canada (Newfoundland & Nova Scotia) for many years. In 2022 I came back to Europe for the first time after 15 years away. Currently I am in Italy, travelling lots. I am happy that Sun Beings and esp. this essay resonate. A lot of passion and depth has gone into it. Feel free to reach out directly (email or contact form) any time.
Lot’s of love,
Carina